Martin went to work this morning promising it would be an easy day - driving from one place to another doing fix ups. I still hate the thought of him over-doing it at the moment, but more than that I hate him being away from me!
Our dear friends Angus & Felicity with their lovely kids come over for lunch - bringing lunch and cooking it up - to give me a little company! It was lovely to have someone to talk with, without feeling like I needed to entertain, and the kids all loved having friends over!
Felicity and I are sitting in the lounge room with Martin walks in, or should I say, hobbled into the room. He looks as if he has twisted his back and is resembling an attempt to look like the letter S. I ask what's wrong and he smiles sweetly, too sweetly, and says 'nothing'. Well I know he doesn't normally walk like that so being the intuitive person that I am I know he is not telling the truth! To calm myself I go and make him a cup of tea. In the kitchen Martin tells me that he is in a lot of pain all down his left side. He can't put any pressure on his ribs. Knowing this is the same side that has a lung with fluid on it, and seeing him almost panting as he can't take deep breathes, I know that it is potentially not a good scene.
He rings Dr Finch, who we have yet to meet, and explain the situation to him. He suggests that if it gets any worse we should go straight to the hospital, they may need to operate sooner, or he may need something for the fluid on his lung.
The kids and I again have our last Hip Hop practice and I do not want to leave Martin. I have found I am coping with everything, but sometimes it takes me a day or so after a new event to recover. This is a new event, and I don't much feel like processing it away from him unsure as to how well he actually is. He came to practice with me - under duress! I am aware of my own selfish need - he should really be home in bed!!
Sleep does not come easily tonight!!
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