I'm not sure either of us have had any sleep! Martin was in a lot of discomfort last night and although he didn't say much I can tell by the excess shuffling of pillows and almost upright position he is 'sleeping' in that he is not in a good way. I eventually dose off after midnight for 2 hours and am suddenly awake again at 2am. I can hear Martin coughing, he does this a lot, but it's harsher than normal. He is pacing in the bathroom - thinking I was sleeping!
I am not good when I wake in the middle of the night - it's when my mind starts to take over my body. Martin comes back to bed, and by the time he gets there I am shaking like a leaf. I try and reason with my mind that perhaps I am cold, but I know that's not it. Tonight we are both in a bad way! Martin keeps tell me he is ok, and I keep knowing that he's just trying to make me feel better! At 3am he is on his hands and knees in bed, head on the pillow, desperately trying to relieve the discomfort! I text my faithful prayer warriors Peter and Marianne and ask them to pray - Martin is in a bad way! I'm not sure if we are going to need to do a middle of the night hospital trip - I kind of hope not - that may feel a little too extreme. Our friends replied that they were both awake and praying together for us. What friends!!! Within 20 minutes of their prayers, Martin's and mine, his pain seemed all but gone and he feel soundly asleep. It took me a little longer as I found myself watching him and listening to the sound of his breathing, but eventually I nod off for a couple of hours sleep.
I could not believe it when I woke this morning Martin was up and ready for work. I am sometimes amazed at how much he pushes and ignores his body! He wants to go to the hospital sometime today and get checked - he needs to make sure his lung is good or they wont be able to operate! He promises he feels alright and it's a very easy job of driving to the sunshine coast and replacing a handle... he will be home before lunch!
Well life has a way of constant curve balls at the moment. Of all days to drive to the sunshine coast, a trip done so many times by us in under an hour, today there was a major accident and it took over 3 hours to do the drive home!
I head out to Felicity's to pick up Ben who enjoyed a sleep over last night. We enjoy lunch together, their kindness has really touched me through all this. I'm really not up to eating much (something different) and I'm beside myself with tiredness!!
I talked to Martin on my way home, around 12:30 - he is still stuck in traffic but heading home! After last night's events I can't wait for him to return - and go to the hospital to be checked - I don't want another night like last night!
4pm and still no Martin and he is not answering any of my phone calls. I am somewhat stressed because of current circumstance but also because tonight is the first performance of Hip Hop Twist and I have no idea where he is! I have called the hospital several times, thinking that maybe he has taken himself there for a check-up on the quiet. Nope not there. I figure he has gone to do the other job he had scheduled for today. Yep keep on pushing that body!!
He walks in at 5pm - I'm not sure whether to cry, smile, yell or act normal. I think I somehow manage to do all over the above! He has promised he is feeling much better and does not need to see a doctor. What can I do - it is his body and I need to trust his instincts.
The performance went alright tonight. I feel like an actor every time I walk into church. I smile and talk to everyone but on the inside I am a different picture. Somehow on 4 hours broken sleep I manage to almost remember the dance routines, my lines and sing my song without too much problem.
The night has gone well - hopefully tomorrows performance will go better and hopefully tonight we will all get some sleep!!
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