Another morning waking up in a haze. I really am not myself this week. I can't even seem to write my blog with much enthusiasm! Martin is working again today. I must say I'm not overly happy that he is. The dr told him on Tuesday he was an idiot if he did any more work, but he is pushing through this week so he can tie up his loose ends. I am trying to be understanding, but also stressing over his physical abilities!!
My kind friends from near and far have expressed their concern about my own health. I know I need to be careful and look after myself. For those of you that have expressed concern please know that I am trying to eat - it may not be big portions or as frequently as I should, but I am getting some food into me! While I have lost almost 8kg, I am still not down to pre-babies weight, so be assured I am not fading away too much!! Still I know that my new sleeping and eating patterns have affected my energy levels. So I am trying!!
It is hot and boring out our house so we have loaded up to go over to mums. I love the company of my children, but I think it must be getting time for them to go back to school - I am finding the constant questions and level of conversation exhausting and I feel the need to be around adults. Maybe it is for my own security - my inner child needing someone bigger than me to be close by?!?
Mum weaves her usual magic and we all have yummy chicken sandwiches. The kids have a nice swim. William is hanging very close by my side. I am unsure at first if he is bored or if there is more to it. Once he starts crying at the thought of his birthday party day changing I know that there is more to it. He is such a sensitive soul and while he doesn't speak much I know that his daddy is on his mind all the time! We share cuddles and tears and he sits close by me until it's time to go.
As soon as Martin phones to say he is on his way home I am packing up the kids and loading them into the car. As to be expected Martin looks tired. We opt for a very easy dinner and then curl up with the kids to watch the movie UP which has been lent to us. It is a rare moment that we sit and watch a movie together and I don't think I am prepared for the emotions that the movie generates. The beginning is so sweet as it shows the love of a husband and wife - from meeting as one children and them growing old together. They have a jar to save their coins to go to 'Paradise Falls' their dream destination. Every time something unexpected in life happened they would have to break their jar and use the moment for reality. At that point I begin to sob - 'Baby, that's just like us trying to get to England!!' I think he had already had the same thought! As she was in hospital dying of old age, she wrote in her adventure book "thank you for the adventure, now go and create your own". More tears. Even the kids are crying!!
It is a sobering thing when you think that each day you are writing the story of your life. We cannot always chose the characters in our story but each of us gets the opportunity to chose the person that plays the leading role.
Martin, I thank you for the wonderful adventure you are taking me on.... for the 4 wonderful characters that you have woven into our story.... for the laughter, the tears, the adventures and the dreams of our adventures. Once I resented chapters that we had written together, now I value them because they have formed who we are and what we have now. Most of all I thank you, that by the grace of God, the adventures will keep on coming!
I promise to love, honour and obey, in sickness and in health, for richer and for poorer - until death do us part!
You are my treasure!!! xx
My kind friends from near and far have expressed their concern about my own health. I know I need to be careful and look after myself. For those of you that have expressed concern please know that I am trying to eat - it may not be big portions or as frequently as I should, but I am getting some food into me! While I have lost almost 8kg, I am still not down to pre-babies weight, so be assured I am not fading away too much!! Still I know that my new sleeping and eating patterns have affected my energy levels. So I am trying!!
It is hot and boring out our house so we have loaded up to go over to mums. I love the company of my children, but I think it must be getting time for them to go back to school - I am finding the constant questions and level of conversation exhausting and I feel the need to be around adults. Maybe it is for my own security - my inner child needing someone bigger than me to be close by?!?
Mum weaves her usual magic and we all have yummy chicken sandwiches. The kids have a nice swim. William is hanging very close by my side. I am unsure at first if he is bored or if there is more to it. Once he starts crying at the thought of his birthday party day changing I know that there is more to it. He is such a sensitive soul and while he doesn't speak much I know that his daddy is on his mind all the time! We share cuddles and tears and he sits close by me until it's time to go.
As soon as Martin phones to say he is on his way home I am packing up the kids and loading them into the car. As to be expected Martin looks tired. We opt for a very easy dinner and then curl up with the kids to watch the movie UP which has been lent to us. It is a rare moment that we sit and watch a movie together and I don't think I am prepared for the emotions that the movie generates. The beginning is so sweet as it shows the love of a husband and wife - from meeting as one children and them growing old together. They have a jar to save their coins to go to 'Paradise Falls' their dream destination. Every time something unexpected in life happened they would have to break their jar and use the moment for reality. At that point I begin to sob - 'Baby, that's just like us trying to get to England!!' I think he had already had the same thought! As she was in hospital dying of old age, she wrote in her adventure book "thank you for the adventure, now go and create your own". More tears. Even the kids are crying!!
It is a sobering thing when you think that each day you are writing the story of your life. We cannot always chose the characters in our story but each of us gets the opportunity to chose the person that plays the leading role.
Martin, I thank you for the wonderful adventure you are taking me on.... for the 4 wonderful characters that you have woven into our story.... for the laughter, the tears, the adventures and the dreams of our adventures. Once I resented chapters that we had written together, now I value them because they have formed who we are and what we have now. Most of all I thank you, that by the grace of God, the adventures will keep on coming!
I promise to love, honour and obey, in sickness and in health, for richer and for poorer - until death do us part!
You are my treasure!!! xx
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