My day has started early again after a fitful night sleep but I have things to try and achieve today! My washing pile has taken over my house... I am beginning to wonder how 6 people, 4 of them little, can produce so much washing between them! I begin the mammoth task of sorting, folding, and trying to get the kids to put their things away!! Last night I went to bed wishing there was really such a thing as the tooth fairy, and that someone had thought to invent an ironing fairy to keep the magic alive in our adult years!!
This morning, while the tooth fairy in our family seems to always have trouble finding her way in the door, the ironing fairy has left a message to say if I delivery it to a magic street in Wavell Heights it will be done for me!! This has spurred my motivation to find the bottom of the washing pile and have it delivered as early as possible.
I pick up Allie, my baby sister, at 10:30 and we make our way to Lucy the Ironing Fairy. There seems to be too much going on today and I can start to feel my head spin and my eyes threaten a migraine! My phone doesn't seem to stop ringing, kids don't stop talking, rushing from here to there - people to see - places to go!
Allie is looking after the kids for me while I go and get my hair done. I am looking forward to magic that colour and pampering can bring to ones well being. I am glad that I am getting it done at Jasmine's house and not a salon - I don't think I am up to being around lots of people. As I walk in, I see Jasmine and Sam sitting at the table eating lunch. It is a comforting sight but I felt a little overwhelmed as I sit down. I'm not sure why - if it's because of the closeness of their kindness or feeling inadequate to deliver a conversation. As I begin to relax someone else arrives to have their hair done as well - ok this may actually prove too hard. I really don't know how to sit, laugh, talk and act normal today. I am starting to feel very emotional and want to howl!! Holding myself together, with colour transforming the roots of my hair, Sam asks me if she can give me a pedicure. Touched by her kindness and feeling awkward at it at the same time, I accept. As soon as I place my feet in the warm water of the foot spa, I cannot stop my tears! The kindness of friendship has touched my heart! I get a grip on myself - and then my phone rings (again!). It is Martin's brother, Stephen. He wants to know how Martin is and mentions that Martin told his mum something about a time frame that the oncologist had given him. I cannot stop myself from shaking and nor can I stop my tears from flowing!! Now I know why I don't get out very much!!!
I get through my pampering treatment and while I leave feeling somewhat emotional screwed up, I am touched by the friends in my life. I arrive home to find that Allie has made my kitchen clean and shiny - more tears!
I have a couple of the young ladies coming over for dinner tonight. I am glad I got Mt Washing Pile sorted out - one less mess in the house! I don't feel very festive and hospitable, but I've been in that place before and somehow manage to rally myself! I am looking forward to Martin coming home!!
I called Oznature while I am waiting for Martin to arrive home. It is a place a friend had referred me to for buying apricot kernels. I tell them that we need kernels for my husband who has just been diagnosed with cancer. She was the bearer of some good news (finally!!) Kernels can be ordered and shipped within Australia - no paperwork necessary!! I asked her how many kernels he should be eating - he is already having 20 a day! It turns out he should be having 50 to 60!!! Yes people - 50 to 60 apricots a day!! That's 420 a day... 1820 a month.... 21,840 a year!! Alright - seriously need to move to the country and plant that apricot farm!! She also gave me the name of 3 doctors in QLD that they know if who prescribe laetrile - the medicine that Martin is needing! Break through!!!
Martin arrived home bearing a bunch of flowers for me! Ok so flowers aren't a common gift in our house hold, and my emotions are being completely irrational, so I once again burst into tears. Poor Martin, think he realises at this point that perhaps I am having an emotional disturbed day!! He is patient and kind and lets me pour out tears that would make no sense to a man - telling him how random acts of kindness have reduced me to tears.
I manage to slap myself a little bit - enough to get dinner cooked and the lounge room presentable for Nabby and Margaret by they arrive. They come bearing gifts - chocolates and flowers. Fortunately my irrational outbursts of tears has subsided and I manage to have a normal reaction and just say thank you!!
It was a lovely night. The company of friends is medicine for the soul - it really is good to focus on other people and not just our own predicament!!
I am glad today is done. I have made no sense to anyone - most of all me!! I am grateful as I close my eyes to sleep that tomorrow I have my man with me for the day. He is slowly winding down his work - I am relieved knowing that when he stops he may start to get the rest he is desperately needing!! I am also relieved as his presence brings me an unexplainable amount of comfort!!
This morning, while the tooth fairy in our family seems to always have trouble finding her way in the door, the ironing fairy has left a message to say if I delivery it to a magic street in Wavell Heights it will be done for me!! This has spurred my motivation to find the bottom of the washing pile and have it delivered as early as possible.
I pick up Allie, my baby sister, at 10:30 and we make our way to Lucy the Ironing Fairy. There seems to be too much going on today and I can start to feel my head spin and my eyes threaten a migraine! My phone doesn't seem to stop ringing, kids don't stop talking, rushing from here to there - people to see - places to go!
Allie is looking after the kids for me while I go and get my hair done. I am looking forward to magic that colour and pampering can bring to ones well being. I am glad that I am getting it done at Jasmine's house and not a salon - I don't think I am up to being around lots of people. As I walk in, I see Jasmine and Sam sitting at the table eating lunch. It is a comforting sight but I felt a little overwhelmed as I sit down. I'm not sure why - if it's because of the closeness of their kindness or feeling inadequate to deliver a conversation. As I begin to relax someone else arrives to have their hair done as well - ok this may actually prove too hard. I really don't know how to sit, laugh, talk and act normal today. I am starting to feel very emotional and want to howl!! Holding myself together, with colour transforming the roots of my hair, Sam asks me if she can give me a pedicure. Touched by her kindness and feeling awkward at it at the same time, I accept. As soon as I place my feet in the warm water of the foot spa, I cannot stop my tears! The kindness of friendship has touched my heart! I get a grip on myself - and then my phone rings (again!). It is Martin's brother, Stephen. He wants to know how Martin is and mentions that Martin told his mum something about a time frame that the oncologist had given him. I cannot stop myself from shaking and nor can I stop my tears from flowing!! Now I know why I don't get out very much!!!
I get through my pampering treatment and while I leave feeling somewhat emotional screwed up, I am touched by the friends in my life. I arrive home to find that Allie has made my kitchen clean and shiny - more tears!
I have a couple of the young ladies coming over for dinner tonight. I am glad I got Mt Washing Pile sorted out - one less mess in the house! I don't feel very festive and hospitable, but I've been in that place before and somehow manage to rally myself! I am looking forward to Martin coming home!!
I called Oznature while I am waiting for Martin to arrive home. It is a place a friend had referred me to for buying apricot kernels. I tell them that we need kernels for my husband who has just been diagnosed with cancer. She was the bearer of some good news (finally!!) Kernels can be ordered and shipped within Australia - no paperwork necessary!! I asked her how many kernels he should be eating - he is already having 20 a day! It turns out he should be having 50 to 60!!! Yes people - 50 to 60 apricots a day!! That's 420 a day... 1820 a month.... 21,840 a year!! Alright - seriously need to move to the country and plant that apricot farm!! She also gave me the name of 3 doctors in QLD that they know if who prescribe laetrile - the medicine that Martin is needing! Break through!!!
Martin arrived home bearing a bunch of flowers for me! Ok so flowers aren't a common gift in our house hold, and my emotions are being completely irrational, so I once again burst into tears. Poor Martin, think he realises at this point that perhaps I am having an emotional disturbed day!! He is patient and kind and lets me pour out tears that would make no sense to a man - telling him how random acts of kindness have reduced me to tears.
I manage to slap myself a little bit - enough to get dinner cooked and the lounge room presentable for Nabby and Margaret by they arrive. They come bearing gifts - chocolates and flowers. Fortunately my irrational outbursts of tears has subsided and I manage to have a normal reaction and just say thank you!!
It was a lovely night. The company of friends is medicine for the soul - it really is good to focus on other people and not just our own predicament!!
I am glad today is done. I have made no sense to anyone - most of all me!! I am grateful as I close my eyes to sleep that tomorrow I have my man with me for the day. He is slowly winding down his work - I am relieved knowing that when he stops he may start to get the rest he is desperately needing!! I am also relieved as his presence brings me an unexplainable amount of comfort!!
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