OMG – what a horrible nights sleep! I awoke at around 2am – dripping in sweat, barely able to breath and shivering like a leaf. I end up on the toilet (I will begin to realise that diarreaha will become a standard part of my life!). I cannot sleep and cannot calm myself down. I begin to lay in bed praying and asking Jesus to comfort me. “Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean not on your own understanding. Acknowledge Him in all of your ways and He will make your path straight.” Thank you Jesus! I begin to say “I trust in you Lord” over and over and eventually fell into a peaceful sleep.
I awoke this morning, after my horrid night, and felt transformed. Faith filled my soul and I had a spring in my step. By the grace of God I sat down to do my work and found that the pages of the magazine flowed without much effort or anguish.
We had to go past the doctors today to pick up the film from the cat scan. I see Martin and Dr B standing out on the pavement in deep conversation. Knowing I can’t take much more after yesterday I hide in the car. It’s very difficult at times like this to keep 4 children blissfully unaware of the fact that their world, our world, is spinning in a completely different direction, but for now I am determined that they need to be kept in the dark!
We head to our new “summer house” (which is my mum’s home while they are away) to enjoy a swim and some r&R time. Martin and I get an opportunity to talk about the conversation had with the doctor while the kids swim in the pool. Apparently the hospital should be calling us any moment now and if we should give them a call to chase it up with them. Again the dr said there was no point going private as the public system is treating him as an urgent case. We ring the hospital – nope wont be today, they will send us a letter when they are ready to see him!! OMG – if this is how you treat urgent cases – no wonder the population is in uproar over the health system!! I call our friendly Dr B and ask him why they would be going down the path of letters and how much wait time will there really be? Each hour ticks by like it is weighted with lead – I don’t think I can do another week of ‘waiting’!! He told me to call them on Monday if we haven’t heard anything. Ok – it’s going to be a long weekend!!
It’s time for bed. I have had a stronger day today – one filled with success at work, strength in my faith, indignation at the medical system and all the while one weaved with dread and trepidation! I am again weary, but night time is what scares me most. A dark room with no noise and distraction – just me and my mind tormenting me with thoughts and scenarios!!
I have taken to sleeping with a night light, it is reassuring in the early hours of the morning. I also sleep with my phone next to my bed ready to text for prayer cover if and when I need it. God is helping me to lean on others by removing the skirt I hide under.
It has been a better day and a peaceful sleep comes quickly!
I awoke this morning, after my horrid night, and felt transformed. Faith filled my soul and I had a spring in my step. By the grace of God I sat down to do my work and found that the pages of the magazine flowed without much effort or anguish.
We had to go past the doctors today to pick up the film from the cat scan. I see Martin and Dr B standing out on the pavement in deep conversation. Knowing I can’t take much more after yesterday I hide in the car. It’s very difficult at times like this to keep 4 children blissfully unaware of the fact that their world, our world, is spinning in a completely different direction, but for now I am determined that they need to be kept in the dark!
We head to our new “summer house” (which is my mum’s home while they are away) to enjoy a swim and some r&R time. Martin and I get an opportunity to talk about the conversation had with the doctor while the kids swim in the pool. Apparently the hospital should be calling us any moment now and if we should give them a call to chase it up with them. Again the dr said there was no point going private as the public system is treating him as an urgent case. We ring the hospital – nope wont be today, they will send us a letter when they are ready to see him!! OMG – if this is how you treat urgent cases – no wonder the population is in uproar over the health system!! I call our friendly Dr B and ask him why they would be going down the path of letters and how much wait time will there really be? Each hour ticks by like it is weighted with lead – I don’t think I can do another week of ‘waiting’!! He told me to call them on Monday if we haven’t heard anything. Ok – it’s going to be a long weekend!!
It’s time for bed. I have had a stronger day today – one filled with success at work, strength in my faith, indignation at the medical system and all the while one weaved with dread and trepidation! I am again weary, but night time is what scares me most. A dark room with no noise and distraction – just me and my mind tormenting me with thoughts and scenarios!!
I have taken to sleeping with a night light, it is reassuring in the early hours of the morning. I also sleep with my phone next to my bed ready to text for prayer cover if and when I need it. God is helping me to lean on others by removing the skirt I hide under.
It has been a better day and a peaceful sleep comes quickly!
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