A new day, a new year, a new decade - a new hope!
Martin has woken happy this morning. I am still feeling a little wounded from last night, but I am determined not to process my wounds and disappointments like the past. So I am trying to return his kindness for kindness. I head out to buy everyone McDonalds for breakfast - it is a bit of a tradition on new years! It seems like it is a tradition for half of Brisbane as the drive thru was packed!!
Sara and John are going to visit Grandma this morning and I am going to make the most of them going and tag along! I have not had it in me to visit her alone! We bring our McDonalds to her unit, I have left the kids with Martin eating theirs. She is happy to see us. Asks the same question several times in slightly different ways. Sara has given her some toffee almonds and I am beginning to have visions of Grandma cracking her teeth on them and me needing to do endless drives to the dentist! Not sure I am up to that thought just yet!
The moment we pull back in to our summer house driveway John announces that they are departing for Sydney. Too much too soon. I have just left Grandma with visions of cracked teeth and the realisation that I am the only person close by if she gets sick or needs attention! Now Sara is leaving - my security blanket! I am standing at the door - without the comfort of my hiding skirt and devoid of my security blanket - I feel naked! It is silly really, Sara lives 2 hours drive away from me, but it is the knowledge that should I need her 2 hours is a lot closer than the 12 hour drive they are about to embark on! More tears!
Once I get over my emotional reaction, I realise that I am probably tired. It was a late night last night, and with all the emotional energy I know my body tires easier than usual! Hannah has stayed with us - she is flying to Sydney tomorrow night. It is nice to have her around and a good distraction for the children.
The day has been an alright start to the year!
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